field hollers of the dispossessed
 
 
     maybe it was the war 
   that disgraceful exercise of power and duplicity 
maybe it was the assassinations 
  that rocked our little niche of security
there was always something
 
           i don’t know 
those three words have fallen 
  from the honest lips of thinkers and wanderers
           i don't know 
    great religious philosophical and political lament 
the first wave of what was to be called the baby boom       
nothing was more certain than uncertainty 
           pioneers 
or more correctly guinea pigs 
the rock and roll generation 
 hiding under desks in atomic bomb drills 
    told of communist bogeymen 
under every bed
consumed by so much confusion
   the bible read against kerouac on the road
or henry miller read with a flashlight 
  the brush fire became a conflagration 
  theology displayed along with the pill 
everything was televised and someone on the west coast 
knew how to finish a sing song chant 
that started  from the east coast 
       the fad and the phenomena 
sputniks and puppets 
   mass culture and home town simplicity 
        far more questions than answers 
 transitions became brick walls 
    yin and yang graying 
 suffering from insecurity where once it celebrated change       
the vine produced nothing of permanence 
             and the smoke’s now a haze
   the music struggles with hints of new realities 
         sex  drugs and good old rock and roll 
internal themes and half crazed anthems 
dancing to  external rhythms 
       and field hollers of the dispossessed











  PRETTY POEM

Write me the pretty words
    we’ll dissect your technique over brandy
Napoleon,
write me flowery images
to make your point in lace and frills,
tell me how Harold loves Ellen
  or Mary
or Joe
or some other dumb ass
    who plays your game of avoidance
       and fear—
dodging bullets on your knees
Yeah baby,
write me the pretty words,
  intricate little images
of rolling alliterative tripe
            and painful rhyme,
it’s a cute illusion,
baby,
fiddle the world away
and your life.









     NOTHING REALLY MATTERS

We’re in an army friend,
draftees
our likes are inconsequential
conscripts,
‘cause it’s us against them,
again,
or so the idiot says
some will die,
the sacrifice of soldiers
        and nature,
nature’s in our shadow babe,
the price tag cometh
and it isn't pretty
  “it ain’t even close.”













                     I GAVE YOU ME

Woman,
I love you so,
I gave you me
   through your tinted glasses—
everyone’s tinted glasses,
  greater love hath no man
than state of the art death.















     LIFE’S RECKLESS SHOTS

How things can escape the mind,
actually being expelled
while clinging to the memory,

The pain of every day’s love lost
the agony of losing one’s grip
on reality’s thin ledge over the abyss.

Love conquers all,
    in a cruel hoax,
love doesn’t conquer
  it lifts and elates,
but only for those who know it’s understood
only
when it’s not understood.
  












              THROUGH ALL AGES

The path through all ages
   soul defiled, heartsick
tradeoffs friend of mine,
we make them
        and they make us,
It’s an attitude problem,
light the night,
  the night needs it,
tell me again the wondrous story
of capital’s delight,
tell me of maturity,
the modern man’s delusion
laboring for what never was
at the command of what isn’t,
lacking only a participant
    for a fool’s trilogy—
an all star trinity,
yea, I love it,
participatory democracy
dripping blood.













    LOOK AWAY, LOOK AWAY

People who have nothin’
fightin’ over our ideas
    as if they are ideals—
ideals as only we saw them
Yes and yea,
the condition of grass after elephants battle

For people with nothin’
are fighting over our ideas—
   ideals as we state them,
It’s a mean mood
running through denuded forests
   I know this,
because we can no longer see the trees of our discontent,

It’s a mean mood
  in hand furrowed rows through barren soil,
It’s a mean world
that roils through barren water.








THE DOUBLE VISION INHERENT
IN LESSER WORKS

Images of forever in a plane
  piloted by real people
on their way to forever or anywhere,
Why don’t I see as the others see?
What is my crime?

Damn
I tried, I think I did
How is it then I feel so different?

If only I’d known,
yea,
right,
I would have done nothing different
   it’s been an acquired taste,
for all I’ve done,
I’ve done to myself.













   THE MAGIC OF DOUBT

Livin’ the life, in the staring state of panic,
   free form confusion
except for those times
of storming cerebral dancing
   a dawning
of stone cold heat of deep water stillness,
   something for the pain amid the journey
  -it’s a tale of wind telling tales in tall trees,
   and it’s about road time in the mind
  life on the road style
of the old doubting magic,
anxiety and elation
coming now to rest poles apart
   yet united
a product of cries in the dark
and knowing glances
on the road to oblivion.









concluding existential lament

today i learned that the birds
   most don't make it more than about
    a year
and here i sit
   intent on immortality
and i can't even fly